The "Fuck It" Strategy

That sounds a bit like an oxymoron, eh? Well, it's how I get through day to day life. I don't mean to say "fuck it," to life and not care about your life and leave yourself void of responsibility. It's more of a way of dealing with people; namely, assholes. I used to be one of those winy, wrist cutting emos who blamed their problems of everyone, and everything else. One day, after cutting my wrist, I was looking at the crimson liquid oozing down my arm, I asked myself a simple question. "What the hell are you doing to yourself!?"

The simple question woke something up inside of me. What was I doing to myself? What did I get out of it? Part of it, I realized, was that I liked telling people that I cut my wrists; pretending to try and hide the cuts and scars while really trying to draw attention to him. The other part was the rush of adrenaline I got from it. That's not really worth it, though. I finally just said "fuck it." I stopped blaming my problems on other people. It was my fault I wasn't happy and so I took it upon myself to make myself happy.

Part of this was finding a new way of dealing with the assholes in my day-to-day life who tried to make me feel like shit, flaunting their self-prescribed superiority over me. Fuck them. Why do I care what they think of me? I won't lie. I do care what people think about me; but if they want to be assholes, I just say "fuck it," and ignore them. If someone doesn't like me, they can get over it. I'm a nice guy. I care about my friends. ...but when it comes to someone who's trying to be cruel to me, or to someone else, I just either ignore them or tell them off. I don't let myself get pissed off. It's great fun to watch their faces turn read as I sit there nonchalantly and smirk.

Another part of my strategy is this: Shit happens. No matter what, negative things will happen in your life. While this negativity hangs over your head like a shroud you have two options. You can allow life to get you down or you can say "fuck it," hold your head high and hold a smile on your face. That's not saying negative emotions are bad. It's important to feel the negative as well as the positive. Just don't allow yourself to dwell on the negative. Just say "fuck it."